I always want to make sense of life, and ‘find myself’. I know I have dreams. Big dreams, I want to have a best-selling autobiography and turn it into a sitcom and a musical and star in it and also host a chat show and have a TV show called ‘Don’t Knock It Til You’ve Tried It’ and do a thousand other things. But I’ve got to admit that it’s fantasy. It would be great if it happened but I need to set some smaller goals first.
Except there’s only one goal – to change the world. Even if it can’t be through singing my soul out on the West End stage, we all should make a positive impact on the places and people around us. There’s so much tragedy that takes place in the lives of our neighbours, our colleagues, our friends that if no-one tries to make a change then the misery will just keep on seeping in.
By standing up, saying “I want to make a difference, I want to be different” you become a better person. Compliment people, hold the door open, turn the TV off, smile, listening to someone’s problems, just do small things that equal a big impact.
It’s these small changes that I’ll take with me to University. Because I’ll be honest, I’m quite scared about going. Well more like a lot scared., But I know it’s the right time – I’d had an amazing 8 years at Westcliff and I feel happy to move on because I know I’ve made a change Which sounds terribly big headed, but I just know.
And even if I do silly things like leave my keys in the door overnight, go out to clubs without ID, don’t know how to cook and the like, I’ve got to go in faith that none of those silly things will kill me and I will make a big impact. And if I can make others happy I know I’ll be happy too.
As I go I’ve got to let go of the past and keep moving forward, I’ve got to get closure on some parts of my life, big parts of my life, big people in my life. But I take the memories of them into my future. A world changer doesn’t let the past drag him down, he lets it build him up become that superstar shining to make a difference.
That’s me and that’s you. If we all respond to that call to make a difference then the change to the world is incredible, the change to me as an individual is big enough to get closer to working it all out and finding out who I am.